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[denelian]

sometimes i think i am dying. that im gonna go to sleep and never wake up. i'm terrified and full of guilt everytime i feel this way. not suicide, i just...won't... wake.
i'm terrified that it will happen, and that pete will freak, thinking he didn't show me enough love; that luny will freak, because she's cut me out; that phoenix will freak cuz she's 11...

why do i keep think i am going to die? its not every night, or even all the time. but its really bad right now. its choking me, pretty literally

can i blame my meds?

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[denelian.livejournal.com]

really? i'm gonna claim that as a compliment ;)

i admit that my meds make really really freaking focused. i hate driving - i'm on OPIATES, for godssake, and while i have been told and told im fine driving, it scares me.

so, uh, "HI JOE!" and a wave :)

[anivair.livejournal.com]

Excellent!

[denelian.livejournal.com]

:)

we really should hang out again sometime - i miss talking with you