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Jul. 27th, 2004
less neurotic?
Jul. 27th, 2004 04:08 amso, the boyfriend is going to DC in like 6 hours.
I'm okay with this.
it feels strange. i ALWAYS hate it when people go out of town. it freaks me out, and i'm afraid that they won't come back. but i'm not freaked. a little down - i don't see him any where NEAR what i think is enough (cuz i'm selfish, i am) - but okay.
part of this i KNOW comes from the very productive talk we had. part of it is from knowing that i need time to do homework (cuz i have this bad habit of fluffing it off). but where did the rest of the calm come from? i have ALWAYS been weird about relationships, with those trust issues and all...
could it be that i really really trust him??? lol - thats whats SUPPOSED to happen and all, but i never trust ANYONE with my emotions (except PJ, whose 8 and doesn't count).
we had the religion talk. i haven't had that talk since before i got married - never had a boyfriend who cared about it (and compatablity in general, i guess). we've had the "sorry i am a neurotic mess but please reasure me" talk more times than i can count (and this time i think it stuck. i'm not easy to reasure). we've had the "we've been friends for over three years but what's your favorite color" talk... its all so weird and i feel light and giggly, which SO clashes with my wardrobe, let me tell you.
i don't even resent the HST duties he has. much.
we are silly and goofy and he falls asleep half the time, but i feel like i am actually in an adult relationship. is that what this is??? have i watched so many Disney movies that i forgot what ACTUAL people do???
Once it seems, and long ago,
I knew what i would want
A knight to see, on Shining Steed
A place for me to mount...
Now it seems so long ago,
Those dreams of yesteryear
How far we go, before we know
That life is better real?
I'm okay with this.
it feels strange. i ALWAYS hate it when people go out of town. it freaks me out, and i'm afraid that they won't come back. but i'm not freaked. a little down - i don't see him any where NEAR what i think is enough (cuz i'm selfish, i am) - but okay.
part of this i KNOW comes from the very productive talk we had. part of it is from knowing that i need time to do homework (cuz i have this bad habit of fluffing it off). but where did the rest of the calm come from? i have ALWAYS been weird about relationships, with those trust issues and all...
could it be that i really really trust him??? lol - thats whats SUPPOSED to happen and all, but i never trust ANYONE with my emotions (except PJ, whose 8 and doesn't count).
we had the religion talk. i haven't had that talk since before i got married - never had a boyfriend who cared about it (and compatablity in general, i guess). we've had the "sorry i am a neurotic mess but please reasure me" talk more times than i can count (and this time i think it stuck. i'm not easy to reasure). we've had the "we've been friends for over three years but what's your favorite color" talk... its all so weird and i feel light and giggly, which SO clashes with my wardrobe, let me tell you.
i don't even resent the HST duties he has. much.
we are silly and goofy and he falls asleep half the time, but i feel like i am actually in an adult relationship. is that what this is??? have i watched so many Disney movies that i forgot what ACTUAL people do???
Once it seems, and long ago,
I knew what i would want
A knight to see, on Shining Steed
A place for me to mount...
Now it seems so long ago,
Those dreams of yesteryear
How far we go, before we know
That life is better real?
well then ;)
Jul. 27th, 2004 07:06 pm
Pirates of the Caribbean!
What movie Do you Belong in?(many different outcomes!)
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suck it up - i RULE!!!
silly alex...
Jul. 27th, 2004 07:28 pmskittles aren't for YOU!
You aren't a bag of Skittles! You are a
well-adjusted person and, while by no means
perfect, you can handle the vagaries of life
without being an asshat.
What kind of candy are you?
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You aren't a bag of Skittles! You are a
well-adjusted person and, while by no means
perfect, you can handle the vagaries of life
without being an asshat.
What kind of candy are you?
brought to you by Quizilla